Thursday 31 July 2014

Are the suicidal subhuman?

The answer is rather strange and depends on your perspective on the validity of suicide, ie can it be a rational choice?

If you believe there's no such thing as an okay suicide then implicitly you're saying the suicidal don't have the same rights and free will as anyone else. The biomedical model of mental illness can be used to prove that suicidal feelings are a spurious product of a damaged brain. It is insane to be suicidal and the suicidal therefore do not have the same freedom as normal people.

In fact most people who think like this don't directly refer to the classic prototype of mental illness. They simply can't conceive or empathise with the suicidal and don't want suicidal people to die. Nonetheless the implicit accusation is the suicidal are not of a right mind. Their minds or brains are damaged such that the free choice to die (painlessly, reliably, peacefully and with dignity) is not, for want of another phrase, right minded. Their minds and free will are less than that of a normal person; they're less than a normal person so there's no validity in their choice to die.

Those who think the other way, the way which validates suicide and precipitates the position that suicide should be legalised, make the judgement that the suicidal are equal to a normal person so have the same rights of liberty. This liberty includes legal assisted suicide or euthanasia.

Simply, the suicidal are not subhuman. They may be hard to understand. They may be suicidal because of a damaging life process (or several). But most of all they're human just like anyone else so they have the liberty to die and should be offered the right way to die rather than the cornucopia of horrible ways to die in the current decriminalised suicide milieu.

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Wednesday 30 July 2014

Weighing

I weigh the intolerable pain of the past. I weigh the intolerable pain of the present. I weigh the unforeseen but inevitable excesses of pain in my future.

I weigh all this and I choose my death as the only solution. Enough is enough and more is too much to bear.

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Tuesday 29 July 2014

Met a psychiatrist today but I wonder why the voice inside my head/the other part of We said she wasn't a psychiatrist?

I do give in to the voice inside my head. Perhaps a little. Perhaps a lot. But sometimes I don't understand it. Nor it me I imagine.

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Saturday 26 July 2014

Unholy

This word is in my head right now.

It feels like the description of my life but this makes little sense just now.

I don't know why I posted this.

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Thursday 24 July 2014

Kill me

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Fwd: Living is torture

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---------- Forwarded message ----------
From: arj.name@googlemail.com
Date: 21 Jul 2014 21:39
Subject: Living is torture
To: "arj name. blogsend" <arj.name.blogsend@blogger.com>
Cc:

Kill me

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Tuesday 22 July 2014

Kill me

Unending, unmitigated despair. Pain upon pain.

For some people this is all there is in like. These people usually find themselves in the care of the mental health systems but it offers no solutions. Practioners lack wisdom and the necessary skills to save these suffering souls. Some make it worse.

No one should be forced to live through this torture. Pain without end or respite is torture - the sort which basic humanity demands must stop.

This basic humanity is missing from the practitioners of this time. Their bland morality enforces more torture on the torture.

When will humanity shine bright? When will mental healthcare acknowledge its extensive failure, its inability to heal?

When assisted suicide is legalised. Till then, I spit on inhumanity. I hate you as I would hate any cunt who allows torture.

Kill me.

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Sunday 20 July 2014

Spare a prayer...

...for the dying

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I know I'm scared to die. I know I'm scared of the terrifying pain associated with certain suicide methods (eg suffocation). I know I'm scared of becoming physically crippled as a consequence of failing in other suicide methods (eg jumping in front of a moving vehicle).

This doesn't mean I want to live. I don't.

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I don't need to say it twice

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What a horrible race I will leave behind when I die

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What a horrible race I will leave behind when I die

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Pain. Misery. Despair. Hopelessness. Betrayal. Unending suffering by merciless agencies.

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God. Hear me.

Kill me. Even if I were your lowliest creation you can not leave me to suffer so.

Kill me. Have mercy on this wretched existence. Let me sleep forevermore.

Kill me. Kill me.

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You took my life from me but that wasn't enough

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You too my life from me but the wasn't enough

I have known evil. Too much.

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You too my life from me but the wasn't enough

I have known evil. Too much.

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Saturday 19 July 2014

Survivor mental health

Dear Elsie, Caroline and the rest

I experience severe psychosocial disability. The system does not work. It is abuse and a failure.

I'm a psychiatric survivor. I perceive forced psychiatric treatment is torture and this is a position the United Nations acknowledge. The Convention for the rights of people with disabilities grants equal rights and therefore eschews all forced treatment.

I reject the biomedical fallacy. Mind Freedom International, the European Network for Users and Survivors of Psychiatry and the World Network for Users and Survivors of Psychiatry acknowledge this and are made up of members and organisations who consider their forced treatment is torture and abuse. At least one study shows the PTSD effect of forced hospitalisation - for obvious reasons this sort of research is poorly funded.

Forced treatment is what creators we survivors of psychiatric abuse - this is the defining attribute of those of the us who define ourselves as survivors. It is a tyrannical system with prejudice at the core, not true medical illness.

There are those who aren't in touch with the survivor movement but reject the nefarious coercion of the mental health system. These unacknowledged survivors and those like myself have had bad experiences, experiences which force us to avoid mental healthcare - sort of like what homosexuals faced in the mid-20th century in the UK (in fact it was the early nineties that the UK demedicalised homosexuality because that's when ICD was updated to remove it. Interestingly perhaps, the diagnosis of ego dystonic homosexuality now medicalises people who should be gay.)

Avoiding mental healthcare protects us from further abuse and the suffering it causes. The cutting edge of the international disability rights movement is fighting against the trauma of forced treatment. It is as unjust now as it was a hundred years ago when single mothers were treated as mentally I'll and forcibly incarcerated.

But what can help us reduce our disability? Who can we turn to for our needs and remain safe from harm? The system is designed around those who accept contact with mental health services but if they represent abuse then there can be no contact.

Survivors are unique to psychosocial disability. We're the victims of injustice and harm. We should not have to face those who harmed and tortured us through forced treatment and other coercive methods, eg restraint. The UN Rapporteur on Torture has declared forced treatment of psychosocial disability is torture - something we survivors have know for a long time.

I don't expect you to agree with us and our experience of mental healthcare. I feel you need to acknowledge it exists. We have suffered because of the forced treatment which the biomedical model justifies but modern disability concepts do not. Foucault addresses the fallacy in his seminal work Madness and civilisation and other authors have made the same point.

What is real is not a disease. What's real is the prognosis - of which there's substantial evidence - which partially describes psychosocial disability. Survivors still need help. Just not more abuse.

Unfortunately, no one in public mental health policy is aware we survivors exist. They might recognise the evidence that there are people with psychosocial disabilities who don't stay in contact with mental health services and this set has even worse outcomes. They don't really understand it though because they don't understand what a survivor is. They don't appreciate the negative consequences - the abuse and torture - of forced treatment.

It is a wholly normal reaction to reject further harm from a system which has already harmed...but rejecting contact with NHS mental health teams leaves the individual totally unsupported.

This problem needs to be acknowledged before it can be resolved at local and national level. How can those who are forced to stay away from the mental health system to protect their liberty be served by the independent sector?

Regards

Arj Subanandan

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We It comes in part from an appreciation that no one can truly sign their own work. Everything is many influences coming together to the one moment where a work exists. The other is a begrudging acceptance that my work was never my own. There is another consciousness or non-corporeal entity that helps and harms me in everything I do. I am not I because of this force or entity. I am "we"